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 I was brought up in faith and until quite recently I´ve had some problems with confessing.It was always an unpleasant duty for me.So, I often extended the intervals between each confession and was always happy when it was behind me because I´d be calm for a while and wouldn´t have to humble myself again.I simply carried out my duty as it was required.

 So, I said during one confession that I´d read that evidence and I felt awfully sorry I wasn´t experiencing such a pleasure from confession.It was a terrible formality and all the time I was rather afraid than joyful and I didn´t feel any particular regret.However, I wanted it so much.I was expecting reproof and patronizing attitude.The priest was silent for a while and then said:“I haven´t heard such a sincere confession for long.Nevertheless, I was „shocked“.In the end I waited for some advice what I had to do and how to confess better.And the confessioner told me:“If you go on like this, you on the best way to God.“Well, I didn´t expect anything like this!Nonetheless, my heart wasn´t empty anymore because was filled with joy.I cried during next confession and wasn´t even able to get everything out of me.I´ve never experienced it.I felt great contrition over my sins and left with great relief.Before the Chrismas confession I prayed for my confessioner and for my confession to be sincere and open.The confessioner was a completely strange man but I was capable of telling him lots of things and wasn´t afraid to open my heart more to him so that I wouldn´t meet with a lack of understanding and go down in his esteem.

I didn´t remember what other things he´d told me but there was a fantastic peace in my heart after this confession.I was experiencing this closeness of the Lord for about next three days.After this experience I´m not scared of confession and even begin looking forward to the next encounter with the priest – not with the priest in the confession box but with the loving and merciful God himself.However, it´s not possible without our prayers.